a 19-year-old teen committed suicide live on webcam.
lazy? here's a short review of what happened (copied and pasted verbatim from a user named "DaveV" in an internet forum):
CandyJunkie posts the amount of drugs he's going to take
Mod[erator]s don't take it seriously
People egg him on
CandyJunkie posts a copied suicide note
People keep egging him on
He pops the pills and goes to sleep
He breathes for a few hours, people think he's going to be alright and keep joking and trash talking on his JTV log.
Some time later many people realize he was not moving.
Personal details posted on Misc. by a concerned misc. request people to call the cops.
People tell me he's a troll and nobody calls. Staberella especially is quite a huge cynic and says that he wasn't going to die on that kind of drugs, she insists nothing is going to happen and that people should just gtfo of the thread.
Miami Police called, the people there do not take the case seriously and tell to call the sheriff of his county, and give me the sheriff's number.
post the sheriff's number on the Misc. thread
jjlee138 calls the Broward County Sheriff's office and speaks to them about the situation along with a couple of other people. By the time I called, it turns out 3 people had already called them about it.
People wait for the cops to bust in on the JTV cam.
Some people start thinking nobody called the cops, at least 5 more people call the cops, they were told the cops were on it
25 minutes after the first call to the cops, the cops bust in. They cover the webcam
People speculating whether he's dead or not
At this point of time a lot of people start deleting/editing their posts everywhere.
Friends post messages on his myspace worried about him, no response from him.
His best friend posts a thread on the Misc. and informs the people that he's dead.
Some people still think its a bluff"
Mod[erator]s don't take it seriously
People egg him on
CandyJunkie posts a copied suicide note
People keep egging him on
He pops the pills and goes to sleep
He breathes for a few hours, people think he's going to be alright and keep joking and trash talking on his JTV log.
Some time later many people realize he was not moving.
Personal details posted on Misc. by a concerned misc. request people to call the cops.
People tell me he's a troll and nobody calls. Staberella especially is quite a huge cynic and says that he wasn't going to die on that kind of drugs, she insists nothing is going to happen and that people should just gtfo of the thread.
Miami Police called, the people there do not take the case seriously and tell to call the sheriff of his county, and give me the sheriff's number.
post the sheriff's number on the Misc. thread
jjlee138 calls the Broward County Sheriff's office and speaks to them about the situation along with a couple of other people. By the time I called, it turns out 3 people had already called them about it.
People wait for the cops to bust in on the JTV cam.
Some people start thinking nobody called the cops, at least 5 more people call the cops, they were told the cops were on it
25 minutes after the first call to the cops, the cops bust in. They cover the webcam
People speculating whether he's dead or not
At this point of time a lot of people start deleting/editing their posts everywhere.
Friends post messages on his myspace worried about him, no response from him.
His best friend posts a thread on the Misc. and informs the people that he's dead.
Some people still think its a bluff"
-End-
The end of the video. A must watch:
His suicide note:
candyjunkie wrote:
Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything
To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"
To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"
Below is the picture of him with his girlfriend (and their son).
Suicide. A permanent solution for a temporary problem.
Bad, bad, bad.
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